Glad to be home early....

It's been forever since I've posted anything. I think about it, but then I don't want to type what I'm thinking. (sometimes).....
Sometimes I feel a little down or negative and I don't want to post that.
Then I feel really good, but then I don't post...
Tonight, I feel like it!
I'm on the team for my ACTS retreat. I am really enjoying it, but of course I'm a little shy and sometimes have a hard time interacting with some people. I shouldn't feel this way, because I know everyone there has nothing but love. But that's just me.... But I really enjoy it. I'm glad I'm doing this service ---- it has to be part of my purpose.

I got home today around 5:20 today, it was awesome!!! I loved getting home with the sun still out and at the same time as Adam! it was great. I love it... He did too!!!

Need a little boost....

Back at work. I'm not quite in the swing of things. Work is always hard and yes, I get all worked up and have bad days alot, but sometimes, I can get in the swing of things..... get on a roll..... and sometimes feel good about what I've done that day. But, since I've been back on Monday after being on vacation---- no smooth sailing, no rolling with the punches, no good flow. I've only had some anxiety, feeling really low self esteem, feeling paranoid.... very yucky. I really hope I snap out of it!!!

OK, I didn't want to say it, but I think this cold weather and short days are really getting to me. I'm ready for the longer days. I'm ready for the sun to be out when I get home from work. I don't think I ever remember saying those words. I'm usually the "I love the cold/winter days" girl. I usually dread with it starts to get hot. Oh well.....

My sister Tina gave me a T-shirt for Christmas and I love it. I will share it with you. When I read what's written on the shirt it makes me smile inside and out and gives me a little warm feeling.... A little piece of spring in the winter to make me feel good. I need some feel good things right now to boost me up a little.

Advice from a SUNFLOWER
Be outstanding in your field * Hold your head high * Spread seeds of happiness * Feed the birds * Think solar * Keep on the sunny side * Grow up!

(T-shirt from Earth Sun Moon, Your True Nature)

night-night time for the beddie byes

It's a New Year.....

We just watched the Disney movie UP! It was so good....
It makes you want to go for your dreams, or just your adventures. We related to it because Carl and Ellie never had any children -- not by their choice. For those who haven't seen it, it's not a movie about adoption or infertility, that was just a small part in the movie, that of course was huge for me and Adam. This move is about living life, going for your adventures, what ever they may be. Whatever they may be...Whatever they may be......

When I watch movies like this, it makes all these ideas come into my head. So many ideas. Children, school, not waisting days worrying, being parents, helping children thru Foster, not worrying about not having a child, enjoying life with Adam and having a great time, raising a child, making dreams come true for me and Adam ----whatever these dreams may be.

I loved how Russell and Carl became friends. Carl was fighting being friends with Russell, but Russell was such an optimist, just like Ellie. Russell brought the life back into Carl.

Oh well, this movie made me want to read Blogs and write a post of how good I felt.

Happy New Year....